me

i was rejected but God has other plan
so i came to this whole dark world, with my loud scream and tears
and this is i have to do that i have to live here
yea and if finally the time coming, i will go back to my Father
here to help you guys solving all our problems
and bringing new passion of life to death life
surrounded by sadness everywhere that's how
tough it is, but can't ask for anything better
because it just the best that i can have
serving the best i can do for u guys
and wishing my presence here will be something worthy to concern about
the excitement is none but the pain is too much
and definitely hoping i could be blessing

xoxo :DD

Jesus Jesus Jesus

Jesus.. i love you with all my heart.
for now i really know that u have something huge for me and for my future
but yet i haven't know it Jesus

everyday, i seek ur face
i wanna be where you are
it's true!! thousand days can't compare to oneday in Your court
and i'll be glad in You
my heart should rejoice in You Jesus

i don't know how come my heart could be like this
i'm thirsty and i'm hungry
of Your glory Jesus..

yes it's me your daughter
i was lost quite long but now i'm found
was blind but now i see

and i got my spirit back
i got your fire back Jesus
all i have to do is keep it real. keep it real!
it's not just a dream
even if so, i will never want to wake up
peaceful i feel in my heart
Jesus Jesus Jesus

i love You :D

Waktu pertama kali aku melihat mu, biasa di hatiku
at the very first time i saw you, nothing i felt
hari-hari terlewat dan kita bahkan tidak menjadi teman
day by day passes and we even not friends
walaupun sering ku melihat mu, tak sepatah katapun keluar
thought it’s often for me to see you, not even one word comes out
itulah kita dulu
that was we

dan suatu saat di hidupku rasa itu tumbuh
and at one moment in my life that feeling grows
rasa yang tak pernah ada untuk mu sebelumnya
feeling that never been for you before
apakah ini sungguh atau hanyalah kekaguman dariku untukmu?
Is it real or just a feeling of satisfy from me for you?
Pertanyaan yang tak bisa kujawab
Question i can’t answer

Waktu itu kau menghampiri ku dan mulai bercakap-cakap
U came to me and had a chat that time
Tak dapat dijelaskan apa yang ada di dalam ku
It’s unexplainable what is inside of me
Saat itulah aku baru bisa menjawab bahwa ini adalah sungguh
Finally at that time i can answer that it’s all real what i feel all along
Ku mulai merasa seperti dahulu saat ku jatuh cinta
I am starting to act same when i used to fall in love

Mencari perhatian mu walaupun kau jauh
Looking for your face even when you far away
Padahal ku tahu tak ada rasamu untuk ku sedikitpun
Despite knowing there is no feeling of yours for me
Ku tetap memiliki rasa itu
I still have that feeling in me
Padahal ku tahu ku akan jatuh skali lagi
Despite knowing i will fall one more time

You left me that day without anything to say
Because you think you did this for our own sake
Did you know you break my heart?
Will you please flashback a little bit?
I know that sometime we have to do good thing instead of making people happy
Even when we decide it, we lost our own happiness
And when we take a move, we lost our dreams for this long
And last when we reach it, we lost our last destination
But we finally reach that new destination
Without looking on ourselves ego
It is hurt but not for that long
Every night i star at the sky
And i see all the stars show their each beauty
And before i close my eyes
I see all our flashback in real
How we through all together
With every drop of tear, with every scream of our pain
With every smile of our satisfy, with every laugh of our happiness
It just so real in my eyes
No one never knew it over already
No one can take it all back
Even you and me
Because the space between us
Can’t be covered with our ever love
It just too wide, too deep
Thought everyone says love can make everything being under it
Not for us
It won’t be like this for long
Because knowing you and me will find our own happiness
We just need to hold on
Just watching me doing my things
Faith not gonna betray us
So it will come and we can make it
Slowly but sure it will come

God, slide me to your world
Full of grace, hope, faith, and mercy
And let me have faith in You
Than have faith in man’s
Because Your work will come
Slowly but true i know it’s coming soon
Catch a glimpse of You the Almighty one is my want
I have trusted in You and my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation
So no reason being down and broken
Because being near with You is my want
In every word comes out from my mouth
It’s count for You
Unexpectable, unpredictable, unstoppable all Your plan JESUS

God's destiny

God's destiny God's destiny God's destiny
something always inside my head and being with me everywhere i go
something i always wonder about, what is that big destiny?
something i always worry about, can i fulfill all your destiny in me JESUS?
something i always want to know about, why JESUS? why me?
something i always want to get over with, i can't do this JESUS..
something i always excited about, this is a BIG thing !!
something i always afraid of, i don't want to let you down..
something i always running away to, this is why i was born and i live here!!
something i always running away from, this is too much for me JESUS..

God's destiny is like a big present wrapped by a big PINK box with a big RED bow on top
waiting for us to open it, to take it, and smile when see it
God's destiny is like a bomb which can't wait to explode
because this is the time to explode and reveal all the bombs
God's destiny is like an ice-cream in the middle of 10kids
something we really want to reach but hard to catch
God's destiny is like air breeze gently in the morning
we can't see it easily but can feel how soft and gentle is that
God's destiny is like calculus learned by 5th grader
it's complicated, seems foolish but so useful for human life

can you reach it?
can i reach it?
can we reach it?
what we suppose to finish, and bring it back to God in the FINAL condition

would you mind to push yourself and make it to your highest limit?
would i mind to push yourself and make it to your highest limit?
until we exhausted because doing God's destiny

answer it
from your deep inside heart
only me
only you
only JESUS

10.2.2010

huftt.. such a century since i didnt post anything on my blog.. this thing happened because i dont have that exciting mood anymore.. what happened to me? IDK.. all i wanna do is only hanging out wif new breed. LOL.. gt a bit addicted into it.. yea, they all great, fun, crazy, wild LOL.. i love them all.. they filled the emptiness inside of me when i need somebody to fill it..
but the thing is i cant see them everyday ): wish i could be with them everytime, it would be so great!! (:
so, lately i had amazing days wif fellow new breed. we had farewell party last tue.. n today we catched " from paris with love" which is a nice movie * two thumbs up for John Travolta and his fave word ( motherfucker ) * hahaha..... i love his style the way he keeps all things and the way he talks LOL.. and today we also went to photo gallery and took some pics together.. we took crazy, hot, nerd, sweet, cute pose LOL.. soooo funny and cant stop laughing that time..
really it was a great time and fun time (: i never felt so much fun before.. i used to go hang out only wif my ex but now since i broke-up i get more into my frens, and try to join them when they have some events or when they gather together.. yea, im so blessed wif their presence in my life.. so i can get over wif my problems.. my personal problem which makes me a bit hopeless..
but NO!! NO HOPELESS IN MY LIFE!!
i wont get hopeless anymore.. i kno someone always in me heart <3 Jesus..
thanks alot Jesus (:
give me strength and hope Jesus.. i love You (:

+ also i want to tell u guys, i kinda like someone.. but yea.. it will never gonna happen ... NVM
love ya Jesus
love ya new breed
love ya guys

XOXO

long time no post!! now i'm back LOL..
u know wat? today i was very touched wif my bestfriend's blog LOL..
i was crying, such a girl haha... c'mon i'll show some pics that we took on sunday in church ..LOL..

1.. this is my bestfriend Shinta (:





isn't she cute?? she has a really sweet smile on his face (:

2... this is me when getting crazy LOL



hahaha... what a wild and crazy girl LOL..
another to show...


3... this is my fave pic (:



look at us.. sweet girls LOL..

4... this is us in front of a big mirror at church hahaha




5..... me (:





6.... what r u looking at sistaaa???






7.... ??????????






8..... cute.. (:





9... endless friendship <3