! BOOYA !

hello my lovely reader. what's up? :) I have this very exciting news that now i'm working as a part-time waitress in one local cafe nearby my place. how awesome is that? haha honestly, i'm kinda proud of myself for being this strong. all thanks go to Jesus.

so, let me tell you a little idea about my work. as this is my very first ever work in my life, i was kind of nervous probably you could tell it from my face?! well of course if you were here :P

so yeah, i learned pretty alot. i tried to build up my confidence, served the customers, and did some cleaning though i'm still not used to everything especially when i am told to do some stuff.

well, this is a quite major step i even took in my life, i guess? but i am really enjoying this. and i am satisfied of it.

i hope this experience will teach me and get me wiser to just manage my life. and i will probably use my own money to buy something i dream of which is obviously CAMERA! i swear im gonna get it by 2011 :) and i will!

alright, that a little bit sneak peak of my work kinda day. now, i wanna talk something about my personal life.

i realized that nowadays im getting sick of facebook and getting more into tumblr. it's like once i'm logged into facebook, scroll down my home page, and i just end up saying "BORING SHIT". err, kinda rude i guess but seriously i'm getting sick of it. while in tumblr, i can get inspired by all the pictures, quotes, and whatever in it. actually, im getting more eager to buy my own camera because of tumblr as well. as i see alot of nice taken photo, i always tell myself that someday i will be able to take photos that are not any less awesome than these. :)

and yeah, im thinking of posting on both of my blog everyday. this blog and my new photography-fashion-beauty blog which i will link below.

PHOTOGRAPHY-FASHION-BEAUTY

go check it out if you are interested in any of those three stuff ;)

it is still kinda empty since i just made it two days ago and i'm still trying so hard to make it more interesting and of course getting follower since i still have no follower on that blog :(

do any of you guys have idea on how can i get more follower? actually, im thinking of asking favor for shoutout for my blog. but yeah, still working on it.

im trying to give my best.

ANYWAY, i told you guys that im also thinking of making a scrap-book right? it is basically just gonna be the book of my life :) i'm gonna put everything i made in it just to be a real good memory. still working on it and i guess it wont be finish until i die? haha

just having some brilliant ideas in my head that i really cant wait to launch it. hehe

oh ya by the way, if any of you guys wanna ask me anything, you all can go to my formspring page. check it out here. i would love to answer anything and probably give some advice to your problem :)

soooo, yeah i think that's all i wanna say for now. i will keep updating my blog as often as possible. and definitely check my other blog, alright?

love y'all

Jessica xx

! BOOYA !

Hi blogger. yes, i know. sorry for my lack of posting.

disappear for awhile but no worries

i'm BACK now !

and this time, i have this massive great feeling about myself :) yay me!

well, i came up with few ideas that i tend to start off by 2011

so basically, the first one is obviously keep updating my blog. second, as photography is just my passion in life, i gotta grab my own camera.

( saving up money is in progress but i'm pretty sure i'll get mine by 2011 )

third, this new idea just came up awhile ago to make a scrap-book. its a very fresh idea though, but im gonna try and go for it since i guess its a quite brilliant idea to treasure the memories :)

check out this song - can't get enough of it

Owl City ft. Shawn Chrystopher - Alligator Sky

# Letting go the stress, Screaming as if there is no tomorrow, Snapping every single thing you see, Wonderful and Memorable day in Universal Studio Singapore

# Smile while you still have tooth, Enjoy while you are still alive

so yeah, just a very quick head up. will surely post more.

ttyl xxx

Jessica~

so, what up blogger?

i know.. i havent blogged in long time. i miss you guys. i havent crapped for sucha long time. and now im so bored here and i decided to blog and talk to yall. i know, and i do realize that probably noone will ever check out or even know my blog. but aww, whatever. as long as im happy, i dont really care about this lol. and i really do happy when im talking to yall

seriously

so, great news! im officially a bachelor student naww, PSYCHOLOGY of course haha. i know i know, its kinda out of the line from whatever shit i have told you long ago. that i want to pursue career in design or photography or whatsoever. of cos, i will not give up design since its like my freaking desire that i really wannabe. but psychology isnt that bad though :) i kinda like it since the first class. i got the feeling that its gonna be an awesome and coolest job i will ever do. i've got this freaking cool idea, after i graduate imma find a job *of cos. then imma work for like 2 years probably, then imma go somewhere else. obviously not singapore, ive got this feeling that singapore is only just my stepping stone so i have this really huge and strong feeling of moving to australia. IM NOT AFRAID. i meant eventhough i gotta start everything all over again from the start i really dont mind it. i admit it im kinda an adventurous girl, its actually a limit from my parents that kinda stuck me with this situation.

ok one thing, i actually cant get a job since im a student pass holder here in singapore. but yeah fuck it. i dont really care, im planning to get a job, earn money, i wanna do something valuable for living. ive been offered a job as a waitress in one cafe where my cousin is in. i was so freaking interested and excited until the time my mom gave me sucha long lecture about bla bla. yes, about the huge risk that imma take once im working there and all those creepy shit.

my mom actually has no idea what kind of daughter that she has. im a risk-taker MOM. really i am.

i told you i wanna have the best of both worlds just like hannah montana, well not really. i wanna have the best of million worlds possible. i just have one freaking life and i gotta do all, everything it is. ive told ya, i wanna be at the edge of death just to feel the excitement, the regret of not doing what i havent done when i was still alive and surrounded by everyone i love, the feeling of screaming till u just get your lung out of your body, the feeling of that the-fastest-beat that u will ever had only once in your life more than when you get on your first kiss or your first sex. yeah, i wanna feel that. yes that.

im a crazy girl as yall cud probably tell, but im a fun girl, dont worry.

i wonder whether there is someone who is just like me, crazy as me or probably crazier than me. im so gonna meet them and be friend, not just friend. be soulmate seeing that we both wud be match and perfectly together. i believe that someday i will find that someone whos gonna.. u know.. understand who am i.. who the truly me, more than my mom even.

i have sucha long way to go right infront of me. its like everynight i can really picture it right infront of me, that very long path, the straight way, the bright road. and its not only me alone, ive got Jesus with me, right beside me. or probably not, he is like everywhere u know, he is beside me to accompany me to everywhere the hell i go, just to remind me that im really not alone in this life journey. i can see Him infront of me, guiding me, and warning me whenever there is a hole or a little tiny stone which i cant even see it. He is like the most shining light who always brighten up my day, my night, warm up my cold night and darkness. and sometimes i can see Him right behind me, ready to hold me whenever i seem to fall, and he always guides me. and weird i can also see Him infront of me, give me blessing and wisdom and all. i love Him, he is the most loyal figure that ive ever known.

ew, my story goes weirdly. this is me when i allowed to speak. HAHA

so, back to the line.

gosh, i lost the idea man. cos im chatting with some of my friends and i just lost. lol

okay so.. ive just done something really stupid. so here it is. i have twitter acc, which is followed by some guy named dennis hegstad. so, i followed him back and he sent me DM to follow another of his account, i did. and guess what turned out. he is a freaking public figure, i meant some sort of shane dawson kinda thing. it actually kinda broke my heart. cos i was thinking that i was probably able to be friend with him. it was way before i found out that hes actually a public figure. so not a single chance, anyway screw it. but i just dont know why my mind keeps thinking about this dennis hegstad things. who the hell is he. -.-

okay moving on..

hmm.. idk what to talk about now. kinda lose all the majestic ideas since the incident that just happened :/

so i guess i'll see yall later. bye xo :)

iloveyouwhoeverreadsthis. trustme,im not lying.

happy halloween :D

heya guys :)

so just wanna share that i made a new tumblr. i guess its kinda fun LOL

so i might post more there than here haha

here is the link http://jessicalolly.tumblr.com/

im sorry blogger :D

but anyway i will try to post on both of my blog haha because i love blogging yeayyy

soooo, how you guys doing? i hope everything is well and smooth. not like me, all screwed up.

what happened to me?

ALOT.. and the worst part is the same thing happened to me.

YUP exactly, i was broken heart for a hundred times :(

i dont want to talk about it right now. because its just gonna bring me down again.. im trying as hard as i can to move on because i know my life is not just for love and broken heart.. i dont even have much time left to think about such things.

i have alot to do, finish my foundation, proceed to degree, maybe do some illegal part-time job to earn more money LOL

and take care of my blogs, vlogs, and my graphic design desire..

huft, i have bunch of thing to do but sometimes i feel like nothing to do HAHA

so i just hope that this might direct my mind and my heart from all the pain i had been through.

i also want to make more and more songs and poems.

im looking for someone to sing it but yet i havent found it LOL so i might gotta wait longer haha

i guess im done for today.. i really enjoy blogging eventhough i dont think there is a viewer of my blog haha i just enjoy telling my story, my life and sharing my experience :)

and i almost forgot

HAPPY HALLOWEEN FOR ALL OF YOU !!

with love, Jessica xoxo

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today.. i dont feel anything at all.. im so stupid and i know i am..
i cant talk much. :(
something goes wrong and i think it is the end of my story..
we were fine at first and at the end we were broken..
i wish i was there to convince you and prevent this from happen.. but it will never happen, im not there and nothing i can do..

you asked me for second chance but you yourself ruin all the chance right when i decided to give you the second chance..
for your information, it hurts deeply.. more that i have ever felt before.. you are not sorry.. no.. i know you are not..
how am i suppose to do when you blur all my mind?
you break the perfectly good heart..

and suddenly you just turn over the steer and drive me crazy. you left me with all the pieces and memories that will never happen again..
it was 7th of June 2010.. when i found the light in you because we share the most special and perfect thing ever, Christ.

i should have known that this would be the hardest thing ever, because the distance between us.
the distance is nothing when someone is so special.
i tried to believe but it is not easy.. sometimes it does not work out no matter how much effort we put in..
i gave my best for us..

you left me with tears in my eyes.. but it is okay.. because tear is the simplest for me right now.. and chasing you is the hardest for me right now..

im sorry.. i will never forget the figure of smile in your face, it is the only thing which can make me smile when i am crying..

the smile of your face is the only thing which is able to bring smile on me when i am in tears.

remember it..

ANOTHER INSOMNIA NIGHT

hiyaaaaaa my guyssss :))

again, another night when i cant sleep :(
should change my name into " OWL " --a hahahaha
sooooo, in order not to waste my wonderful night, i decided to edit some of my pictures :D

so here it is!! rate please (:

yeahhh, that is one of my work.. i got another one here it is......................




ahahahhaaha
alrightttt.. so i just edited these two.. anyway it looks simple i guess.. :) but nevermindddd ^^

oh yer, today is saturday and tomorrow i have to go to church.. ALONE T^T so damn fugging sadddddddddddd....
huhuhu

oh yer!! i almost forgot haha

check this out guysssss..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aigL_hHGZJY&feature=related

hope u guys enjoy it (Y)(Y)
i love it so much.. he has sucha wonderful voice (Y)(Y) soooo, i guess im done.. imma try to post more and more (: and give one link everday for u guyss ;)

c ya, xxxxooooooo


muackkkkksssss********

LAST NAME??

ha ha ha haiyaaaaaa guysss :)) soooo, wub sub todayy?? well, that's good for youu ;) me? emm.. im just lamenting here infront of my laptop lool nah!! im kidding.. so, what i have been thinking lately??????

YER CORRECT!! LAST NAME!!




i've been thinking about last name.. :/ im so pityyyyy, i dont even have last name.. :( that LOLLY is just for fun.. and i realized its not cool at all :( i feel like sucha kid with Lolly behind my name FTW T^T
i've been thinking about adding some cool great name behind mine.. i've been thinking about MAVERICK which is fugging awesome.. but its someone's lastname haha. i just stole it lololol and i do feel bad haha i also thinking about ADELAIDE which is abit weird.. and HASGER :l



so yer, i dont know which one to choose.. im sooooooooooo confused... T^T so leave the comment below and let me know if you guys have something great to put behind my name ..
thanksssss guyss xxxxxxooooooo