i'm back again now. this past week has been one of the most difficult week i have ever needed to go through. and i gotta face it alone. but gladly i didnt go through it on my own. God has been very blessing to me by sending me someone who's faithfully gonna stay by my side well not literally but you know what i meant. distance may keep us away from each other but distance is not gonna weaken my feeling for him. i have been sick, i have lost my phone again, and i have been announced about my subject grade. everything seems ridiculous to be honest, but i trust God. i know God has something beyond this, i know there is a good sign beyond the pain i am having now. i'm not gonna let God go, no matter how hard the situation may seem. but my life exists just purposely to serve Him right. i happened to get down for a moment, that's normal, because i'm just a human. everything seems to turn their back on me. i happened to almost give up, it was such a shame! i can't give up, i've get this far. i'm halfway there, why should i give up? but all i really want know is just time to pass really fast, because this is just too painful! God, i only have You, so please don't ever leave me in whatever situation. let me have new faith and hope in you, please renew my heart because i'm coming now with my broken heart. i need You shine on me God, shine on me.