I remember writing up a post on the exact day last year, yes about how this year went about.
so lets start :)
Personally for me, 2014 is a year full of big moments. This year started off with a beautiful surprise. I and Steven decided to be together on the very first day of 2014. Something unexpected started up my year, and that is how it goes for the rest of 2014.
This year too, I have to give up my "comfort" life. I mean, university life is not that comfortable with all assignment pilled up, but regardless of that, I truly have the best days of my life during university. Friends, heart-break story, fall in love, alcohol, late-night party, up all night, restless, drunk, broke, they all happen during my university life. However it is time to move on as I am done with my Bachelor program this year.
Let's go back to March, April and May. This was the period of anxiety and confusion. THESIS. Oh, sweet God knows how upside down my life turned into when I was doing my thesis. I am gonna admit its fun to do thesis, really. Fun part is when you gotta meet up with your team mates to have some discussion, and every single discussion is a chance to choose which cafe to go to. Obviously,I chose Starbucks :D it comes to the point whereby, browsing for potential cafe is getting so extreme and intensive, that you don't really care about your thesis progress. Oh those days.. I miss them, but I don't wanna go back.
Then there comes submission day, which I rather call Judgement Day. I remember staying up until 4/5 AM in the morning because I was redoing my document alignment and introduction and all those things you need to do last minute, you know...
Didn't get enough sleep, I had to rush to printing shop the next morning. This is another disaster. That day I knew why it is important to "test print". I had to reprint my thesis like 3 times, due to alignment error. Not just I was famished, cos I hadn't had my breakfast, I had to spend more money on some wasted paper :/
As I am writing this, I feel how i miss those days.
After submission, is another big challenge for me. Looking for a job. This is when desperation, hopelessness, uselessness kicked in.
Without me realizing it, I started to change. I felt like waking up everyday in the morning is a burden, cos it means I am jobless and useless. Looking for a job is tough, and I now realize there is no need to hurry it. I mean, you have to apply for job of course, make job application is like your permanent job. Do it everyday, do it like you mean it. But, if you haven't got that call you've been waiting since the day you submitted your thesis, don't worry. It just means its not the time yet.
I myself waited for almost 3 months, jobless before i got my first job. What is more surprising is that, it is not in Singapore. So, without having much choices, and also without wanting to further feel like a hopeless human being, I took the step and decided to move to Jakarta. Oh yes, another big moment.
Its harder to move to Jakarta than when I moved to Singapore. Simply because I dont know this city, not as much as I know Singapore long before I even moved there.
I changed. Things changed. Relationship changed. Dream changed. Friends changed.
I just keep convincing myself, that whatever it is I am living for now is what is the best for now.
God is giving me the best. So no regret.
Keep moving on, keep pressing on.
I have changed job once, and I am settled now. This is the best for now. I believe, only psychology and social media is my passion. So i gotta take chance and work on it.
What will next year hold for me? I have no idea where I would go. But I keep this in mind, "You gotta find it, within you, who you really are", and I shall never be lost.
With that being said, I wish everyone and myself a HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015.
Here are some of my best moments in 2014 :) Thank you for being part of my days..
Love,
