happy halloween :D

heya guys :)

so just wanna share that i made a new tumblr. i guess its kinda fun LOL

so i might post more there than here haha

here is the link http://jessicalolly.tumblr.com/

im sorry blogger :D

but anyway i will try to post on both of my blog haha because i love blogging yeayyy

soooo, how you guys doing? i hope everything is well and smooth. not like me, all screwed up.

what happened to me?

ALOT.. and the worst part is the same thing happened to me.

YUP exactly, i was broken heart for a hundred times :(

i dont want to talk about it right now. because its just gonna bring me down again.. im trying as hard as i can to move on because i know my life is not just for love and broken heart.. i dont even have much time left to think about such things.

i have alot to do, finish my foundation, proceed to degree, maybe do some illegal part-time job to earn more money LOL

and take care of my blogs, vlogs, and my graphic design desire..

huft, i have bunch of thing to do but sometimes i feel like nothing to do HAHA

so i just hope that this might direct my mind and my heart from all the pain i had been through.

i also want to make more and more songs and poems.

im looking for someone to sing it but yet i havent found it LOL so i might gotta wait longer haha

i guess im done for today.. i really enjoy blogging eventhough i dont think there is a viewer of my blog haha i just enjoy telling my story, my life and sharing my experience :)

and i almost forgot

HAPPY HALLOWEEN FOR ALL OF YOU !!

with love, Jessica xoxo

.....

today.. i dont feel anything at all.. im so stupid and i know i am..
i cant talk much. :(
something goes wrong and i think it is the end of my story..
we were fine at first and at the end we were broken..
i wish i was there to convince you and prevent this from happen.. but it will never happen, im not there and nothing i can do..

you asked me for second chance but you yourself ruin all the chance right when i decided to give you the second chance..
for your information, it hurts deeply.. more that i have ever felt before.. you are not sorry.. no.. i know you are not..
how am i suppose to do when you blur all my mind?
you break the perfectly good heart..

and suddenly you just turn over the steer and drive me crazy. you left me with all the pieces and memories that will never happen again..
it was 7th of June 2010.. when i found the light in you because we share the most special and perfect thing ever, Christ.

i should have known that this would be the hardest thing ever, because the distance between us.
the distance is nothing when someone is so special.
i tried to believe but it is not easy.. sometimes it does not work out no matter how much effort we put in..
i gave my best for us..

you left me with tears in my eyes.. but it is okay.. because tear is the simplest for me right now.. and chasing you is the hardest for me right now..

im sorry.. i will never forget the figure of smile in your face, it is the only thing which can make me smile when i am crying..

the smile of your face is the only thing which is able to bring smile on me when i am in tears.

remember it..

ANOTHER INSOMNIA NIGHT

hiyaaaaaa my guyssss :))

again, another night when i cant sleep :(
should change my name into " OWL " --a hahahaha
sooooo, in order not to waste my wonderful night, i decided to edit some of my pictures :D

so here it is!! rate please (:

yeahhh, that is one of my work.. i got another one here it is......................




ahahahhaaha
alrightttt.. so i just edited these two.. anyway it looks simple i guess.. :) but nevermindddd ^^

oh yer, today is saturday and tomorrow i have to go to church.. ALONE T^T so damn fugging sadddddddddddd....
huhuhu

oh yer!! i almost forgot haha

check this out guysssss..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aigL_hHGZJY&feature=related

hope u guys enjoy it (Y)(Y)
i love it so much.. he has sucha wonderful voice (Y)(Y) soooo, i guess im done.. imma try to post more and more (: and give one link everday for u guyss ;)

c ya, xxxxooooooo


muackkkkksssss********

LAST NAME??

ha ha ha haiyaaaaaa guysss :)) soooo, wub sub todayy?? well, that's good for youu ;) me? emm.. im just lamenting here infront of my laptop lool nah!! im kidding.. so, what i have been thinking lately??????

YER CORRECT!! LAST NAME!!




i've been thinking about last name.. :/ im so pityyyyy, i dont even have last name.. :( that LOLLY is just for fun.. and i realized its not cool at all :( i feel like sucha kid with Lolly behind my name FTW T^T
i've been thinking about adding some cool great name behind mine.. i've been thinking about MAVERICK which is fugging awesome.. but its someone's lastname haha. i just stole it lololol and i do feel bad haha i also thinking about ADELAIDE which is abit weird.. and HASGER :l



so yer, i dont know which one to choose.. im sooooooooooo confused... T^T so leave the comment below and let me know if you guys have something great to put behind my name ..
thanksssss guyss xxxxxxooooooo

LDR

yooo, blogger.. long time i never update my blog.. it proves im not responsible to my own blog :'( so sad..
i guess im going to update my blog more often now..

so what happened with my life?
1. finally, i made it.. i moved to singapore.. GOOD JOB!
2. i dont know what to say.. im so empty right now..

i have one goal for now.. i want to purchase an iPad :D i will save up my money from now on so i can purchase one LOL
oh yea, i got this quote which is touched me deeply inside..

" IF THE ONLY PLACE I COULD SEE YOU WAS IN MY DREAM, I WOULD SLEEP FOREVER "
that quote really has a great meaning.. and i was like " GOD, IT SHOWS HOW I FEEL FOR HIM "
:'(
being separated by distance sometimes will bring me down.. passes all my day without his smile bring me down.. i wish i could hold his hand and bring him to heaven on earth..
i wish there is one place for me and him to be together.. :'(

i should wait wait and wait.. the longest period of waiting is waiting for someone you truly want.. indeed..
but i always keep this in my mind.. if there is ever a day when i could be with him and stay together, i would fight for it no matter what it takes..
the thought of being with you tomorrow gives me strength to go on today
just know that im always waiting for you..


SIGH..
'NUFF BLOGGING.. see ya soon :D
bye catch ya lata..

me

i was rejected but God has other plan
so i came to this whole dark world, with my loud scream and tears
and this is i have to do that i have to live here
yea and if finally the time coming, i will go back to my Father
here to help you guys solving all our problems
and bringing new passion of life to death life
surrounded by sadness everywhere that's how
tough it is, but can't ask for anything better
because it just the best that i can have
serving the best i can do for u guys
and wishing my presence here will be something worthy to concern about
the excitement is none but the pain is too much
and definitely hoping i could be blessing

xoxo :DD

Jesus Jesus Jesus

Jesus.. i love you with all my heart.
for now i really know that u have something huge for me and for my future
but yet i haven't know it Jesus

everyday, i seek ur face
i wanna be where you are
it's true!! thousand days can't compare to oneday in Your court
and i'll be glad in You
my heart should rejoice in You Jesus

i don't know how come my heart could be like this
i'm thirsty and i'm hungry
of Your glory Jesus..

yes it's me your daughter
i was lost quite long but now i'm found
was blind but now i see

and i got my spirit back
i got your fire back Jesus
all i have to do is keep it real. keep it real!
it's not just a dream
even if so, i will never want to wake up
peaceful i feel in my heart
Jesus Jesus Jesus

i love You :D