alright, its been a very tough week for me. good things happened, bad thing happened, still i am so grateful for being here now typing this post :p
alright let me start with the good things first.
1. i'm DONE with #LIGA2012 . i was basically in charge for the live-tweeting during the LIGA which is the sport tournament kind of thing by PPIS. and i was appointed to be in charge for 2 weeks and i'm done with that. YAY !
2. i'm DONE with my very first FA Fruity Project. so basically, we opened a booth yesterday, selling stuff that we made and we bought from Indonesia. even though, we did not meet the profit goal we set beforehand, we still sold quite a lot of stuffs. and for me personally, i feel so blessed because through this project we can actually be a blessing for the unfortunate. and that is truly a beautiful thing.
3. i'm DONE with my mentorship orientation. around 2 weeks ago, i went for JCU new term orientation and i was there for this so called "mateship program" that we made up. basically what i did here was just being a friend / mate for a group of new students in JCU. what i did was helping them with problems that they might find, guiding them whenever they stuck and stuff. well, i'm actually not DONE yet because i'm still gonna be their mate for the whole one semester :/
moving on with the bad thing. there is actually just one bad thing, and after considering it for few times, i'm not gonna take it as bad thing no more. well, it looks as though its a very bad thing, but idk, i just learned to focus on the rainbow that comes after the hurricane ;)
today the announcement for last semester final exam is out, and yeah i did pass all the 3 subjects i took. BUT, the results were not as expected. what i thought was that, after putting that much effort last semester, i deserved more. that was my thought, probably that was not what in God's mind. and that's fine.
i let myself stay down there for awhile, kind of letting the disappointment to take control over me for some times, apologized to my parents for not meeting my promise. and yeah, it felt painful.
but on the other side of the matter, i can see God is truly faithful. He sent me amazing friends, amazing family, and amazing partner to be there for me even though what i really needed was only God. they all were very motivating and encouraging, just like what you needed when you felt helpless. one of my amazing buddy sent me this video.
HERE'S THE LINK, GO WATCH IT http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GMrbseGssjA
when i was watching that, i got this voice in my heart saying that "it is indeed embarrassing to be down here, reminiscing how unfair life sometimes can be, but it is more embarrassing to stay down here, and not rising up"
and exactly in that moment, i decided to puff up my chest , stretch my neck and overcome the nasty, the mean and the UNFAIR. i decided to prove to myself that i want more than this.
it was such a relief, to be able to get up and try again. it is in fact a privilege to be able to try again :)
and i know, God wants me to impress Him even harder. i'm gonna nail it this semester.
THANKS LORD !
with love, xx
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