the agony of love

i guess i was wrong and perhaps i am wrong still. seemingly, i am still naive despite all that have happened.
it's just deep inside me, there is still this hope of fairy-tale ending and this belief of "love will always be enough, love will conquer everything"
what is it to believe anyway? where is it to go anyway? if everything, every single thing seems to destroy this little thing we share called love
at this very point of time, i truly wish i didn't know you that day. and most of all, i wish i didn't love you as much as i do now. you make me feel like i've got the best and worst thing in my life. how could it be? i can't even begin to figure it all out
we indeed hurt each other so much, and without a doubt we will always do. however, we indeed love each other a whole lot more than our hatred, we just so love each other even when we are apart, even when you are gone, there is no one that could make my day like you did.
i acknowledge how insane this might sound, but after everything it just comes to my realization, how much i love you even more and how i can't let you go, at all
we may share a totally opposite way of thinking, a real distinctive behaviour and if there's one thing i damn sure about is that we love hard. we really do. we used to fight for us, but i can't say just about the same now
apparently, at some level we are alike. the way we express our feeling, the way we feel, the way our souls are and the way we refuse to lose each other even when we know how much it hurts to hold on to this kind of love
there is no safety in love, there is no guarantee in love, there is only everlasting sentiment within the two souls
and to make it survives, both needs to not give up ever

"love is fragile. and we're not always its best caretakers. we just muddle through and do the best we can. and hope this fragile thing survives against all odds" - Nicholas Sparks

"They didn't agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday. But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other"

Grandma's 70th Birthday

hey peeps! i do realize i haven't posted anything for awhile so here i am back with a happy story!
yesterday, on 21st of June, i and my family celebrated my Grandma's 70th birthday. it was a lot of fun and joy to be able to gather with the whole family and had some quality time, just to catch up with each other and laugh. it's not a secret that it has been forever since the last time we all were together. so without further ado here's some of the shots i took :) well, it feels great to see everyone having a joyous time!

till the next post, xx

the very significant something in life

there comes a point in your life when you are faced with the biggest decision in your life
your destiny may be there, waiting for you to walk your feet on it.
but sometimes the most superficial thing in this world clouds our judgement more than our common sense does
and that is exactly where the deepest regret in life wins their victims the most
so this is where the options lie, between what you want to do in the course of your life and what you want to remember in your very last breathe
what do you value the most? is it your family or friends? or is it your job? maybe your wealth? could it be love? or maybe, maybe God?
i believe, everyone has their own significant something which they value the most, something to live for, something they're willing to die for
because this particular something, is the very entity they find themselves in. it is the very entity they are proud of. the presence of it, will bring just about the purest form of joy in life to them. something that is beyond their skin, beyond their heart, and it wakes something up, something deep within their soul.
the touch of it will never be forgotten, ever.
and when you have felt it, you won't see the need to even think about it for the second time
it is just something right. it is just something worth fighting for. because at the end, it is the reflection of who you truly are as a human being. what you value the most is the reflection of who you truly are.
and i want you to know, you are my reflection God. You are my very significant something, forever and ever
and if there ever comes a point when i have to choose between You or anything else, it will always be You. i don't even need to worry because You have it all. and i will live just fine, just great.