what a late new-year-greeting post from me! it has been 21 days since 2013 left us, and yes i am still surviving.
there are many things, surprises, and blessings happened in the last few days of 2013 and in the first few days of 2014.
before disclosing anything further, i want to officially say that 2013 is a year of "first time" in almost everything. everything here refers to my study, my part-time jobs (various kind, as you may expect), my little getaway and my ministry.
2013 is the year when i got into my 4th year (last year of my university life, ironically sad somehow).
2013 is the year when i joined a couple of volunteering sessions, art festival, and a lot of other events.
2013 is the year when i got to experience 4 different kinds of job, and they all taught me something i will always remember.
2013 is the year when i finally traveled with my girl-friend, Mardey to Langkawi. yes, it was just both of us.
2013 is the year when i finally traveled with my second family, Fruity to Lombok and Gili. yes, one more goal checked.
2013 is the year when i was blessed enough to be able to minister for the whole one year. many events held, and i was blessed enough to dance for my God, never forget.
not forget to mention, i had THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER in 2013.
2013 taught me courage, resilience, acceptance, taking chances and most of all LIVING.
i was faced by so many things i had never encountered in my entire life before. one of them will be the death of my grandpa. and how it taught me to be resilient made me even more assured that most of the best lessons in life are taught in a hard way, and that is okay. it is worth it. the pain and heart-breaking is worth it.
it taught me courage. courage to love. courage to tell people that i love them, cherish them. courage to let them know that they matter. courage to say out things that i once thought better left unsaid. because no, love is not better left unsaid.
it taught me acceptance. because hey, life does not always go your way and that happens to everyone. you are not alone in this. we are not alone in this.
it taught me to take chances. i had the chance, to tell my grandpa or to just show that i love him. but i did not fully take it, i partially did it. and that is not how you do love, you don't do love partially. its either go far or go home.
last but not least, it taught me to live. it taught me to live, despite his death. death is for everyone, and live is too. its just some people die while they ought to live (not literally, you know what i meant). ps: living does not mean you necessarily have to be happy, it only means accept whatever life brings because no matter how smart you are, you don't know what is going to happen in the next 1minute so yeah. living is keep living when you are surrounded by death.
oh, i shall not forget to mention about my travel journey. how shall i address this...
man, i LOVE travelling. like so much, it has become my passion and one of my major goals in life. it has become something i cannot compromise. it has become a major part of my life, to travel, to wander.
when i wander, i am content. and to feel content, is not something you can easily experience (well at least for me). i love that feeling when your soul is connected to your surrounding. you have no sense of time, you are in the moment, entirely. you embrace every single thing in that particular moment. you can feel everything in you yet you are numb because it is consuming. it consumes your complete attention, your utter thought and your whole imagination.
i seldom feel that way. when i found out wandering could help me experience that, i decided that is something i want to pursue.
basically, that is what i had to say about 2013. now unto 2014...
God is good. on 1st of January 2014, it happened.
He decided to cross my path with someone's named Steven. and yes, we are walking together now.
we both have no idea where this path may lead us, but we are walking in faith. and we are learning to trust God, to trust that this path is the path never to end.
i am overwhelmingly thankful for everything He has planned out. i am amazed by how carefully He has prepared my path till i eventually reached this point of my life. i am amazed by how God brought us through.
"A wonderful, God-blessed, God-honoring marriage is what it's all about. and it's the potential for just that, that makes it worth the effort to do the courtship right." - boy meets girl
even if someday the courtship doesn't turn out the way i wish it to be, i will still be grateful because i know i treat him right, i respect him, and i know i rely on God all the time. i will still be grateful and blessed to have known him, because he is an incredible blessing for my divine life. i will still be thankful because our courtship is glorifying God.
"He has made a wide path for my feet to keep them from slipping." - Psalm 18:36
this is our favorite verse, and now we know just how powerful it is and how really God has made a wide path for both of us.
here is some best memories i had.. memories i will cherish as long as i can remember..
till the next post,
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