again, process

these past 2 weeks had been a real process for me. been down with flu about 2 weeks ago, and now im down with gum and throat inflammation, which makes it really painful to bite or even swallow. it truly sucks being sick, because then i can't do anything about it, except resting myself for the whole day and postpone every single thing that i need to do. well, im starting to see how workaholic i really am and how guilty i am for escaping from my routine.
apart from that, i've been struggling quite a lot lately which makes it even harder to go through the day. thankfully, God never fails to show me that He is always with me even when it is almost impossible to believe that there is actually someone who is willing to stay with me in this time of life. and by His grace, i'm still able to go through my process. however, despite every process that i am going through right now, i can again be reminded when i am drifting away from God, that everything is not alright. and this is just one way of Him asking me to seriously surrender everything and let Him write the narrative of my life.
err, i guess that is it. i promise that i'll start posting some cool stuffs here. hopefully i will get fit real soon.
xx