is this a mistake that i'm making ? everything just seems to crumble down on me. i got this feeling that i am positively over thinking and this is killing me. but i can't seem to control my own thought, this is torturing. i wish i could escape from this, here where i am so deeply in love and nothing much i can do. i wish i could pick myself up because i can't see anyone else to help me. something i will not understand. and i swear he is the only thing i put this much effort and time on. and every time i recall the words i have thrown, i will be just like stunned. like how come? this is too much but it looks like i am just standing here to see how much more i can take. will i ever give up ?